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I think....

I wan to try jewelry making.
I think im going to take a black smith course.

Im intrigued by the art of making wonderful metal pieces. I think the process can be a beautiful thing.

I think it would be fun to apprentice or intern for a jewelery maker.

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Some of the people I use to think i've changed so much but in reality i've barely changed.
Im still the same girl. I love Jesus , Im caring , passionate , kind , loving , independent , on a break from school but pretty much the same. The truth is they changed. They proved to be not at all who I thought they were.

When I met J they all were so quick to judge they looked at his cover and never gave him a chance. For so long people kept telling J that he was no good and he believed it when I saw him though I saw a good man who loved the lord and was a little lost. I knew that he was the one that the lord placed in my life. Our paths were intersected by his divine power.

At the beginning of our relationship there were a bunch of bumps on the path but now they are all smoothed out. I am so proud of him. He went from being so angry with everyone and believed that he was not good to knowing his full potential. I am so proud of him. He doesn't drink or party. He isn't angry with anyone he is who he was meant to be. He just needed hope , he had lost hope but now he is not that man anymore. Before he didn't have a relationship with his folks and he does now. Its really great to see him become this wonderful man.

I wish that those I was close to would have seen him how I saw him. They saw him as the world saw him , I saw him the way God saw him.
I hope that one day they do see what I see.

and today is another day.

Here are JUST A FEW photos from the past few days. Were up at my Moms place near Bellingham. They have Cows in the backyard and we went to the Rock Garden ( Which is really just a sculpture garden) and it was very beautiful.

where have I been?

sitting in my bed
staring out the window
I see a world.
A world created for me.
How could I have gone.



I feel lost
I feel lonely
im not sure who I am.
you were always there for me
and I broke your heart
lord I still love you.
lord i haven't forgotten you.


I know I havent gone to far
but i know its far enough.
you brought me the love of my life
and here ive been ignoring you


the people of this world
I let them in and they brought me closer to you
but than they broke my heart
and tore it into pieces.

I know it wasn't you
but I dont know what to do
who do I trust.
I know I only need you
but is that enough?

I know your standing next to me
waiting for me to move.
I know you love me through all of time
and accept me for who I am.
but im afraid.

what if im not good enough?
what about my mistakes?

I know I need to love myself like he loves me , like YOU love me.
but I need guidance , I need help.
I feel like im broken never to be fully fixed.
Should I just open up?


and Will he come back to you.
will he love you with me
will we worship you
will we stand together
I know he loves you but hes been hurt
hurt like me.
we both love you.
i want to love fully
I want to be.

Part of me is lost
part of me is lonely
I know who I am
I know you ARE there for me.
im not going to ignore you anymore.
Ill be here trying my best.
I still love you lord.

Heart of Worship

Yes Jesus.