where have I been?

sitting in my bed
staring out the window
I see a world.
A world created for me.
How could I have gone.



I feel lost
I feel lonely
im not sure who I am.
you were always there for me
and I broke your heart
lord I still love you.
lord i haven't forgotten you.


I know I havent gone to far
but i know its far enough.
you brought me the love of my life
and here ive been ignoring you


the people of this world
I let them in and they brought me closer to you
but than they broke my heart
and tore it into pieces.

I know it wasn't you
but I dont know what to do
who do I trust.
I know I only need you
but is that enough?

I know your standing next to me
waiting for me to move.
I know you love me through all of time
and accept me for who I am.
but im afraid.

what if im not good enough?
what about my mistakes?

I know I need to love myself like he loves me , like YOU love me.
but I need guidance , I need help.
I feel like im broken never to be fully fixed.
Should I just open up?


and Will he come back to you.
will he love you with me
will we worship you
will we stand together
I know he loves you but hes been hurt
hurt like me.
we both love you.
i want to love fully
I want to be.

Part of me is lost
part of me is lonely
I know who I am
I know you ARE there for me.
im not going to ignore you anymore.
Ill be here trying my best.
I still love you lord.